"Overthinking" // Song exploring depression, loss, love, and life

This is a song I wrote the other night while I couldn't sleep. It's just about all those times we overthink things and then cause more worry, depression, sadness, etc. then we even had in the first place.

Hope you guys enjoy!

https://soundcloud.com/jamesgetsit/jamesgetsit-overthinking

Lyrics

I'm making sparks but I need a fire

I'm spitting bars but they seek a choir

I'm up so far, but I'm climbing higher

Man, it's so damn hard walking on this wire

I see the signs, but they keep me lost (yea)

I change my mind with every single thought (yea)

There's so much time but I'm at a loss (yea)

Now I've designed my own fucking cross (yea)

And now the light's no longer burdensome

But this thing called life, I'm in search of some

Will I keep my heart until this circus done?

Or will I bow in darkness when the curtains come?

I hear the secrets coming from my cage

The walls speak it in the bleakest way

My eyes cry when I see the day

I want to see it, but I see decay

I wanna lead but I wanna hide

I wanna leave when I just arrived

I wanna see life beyond my eyes

I wanna become someone alive

I want belief but there's only pride

I don't believe who is by my side

Cuz some deceive, they only lie

Now that leaves me to wonder why?